My Carpet Installation is making me Emotional

Got to be honest…I cried on my way to work today because we are getting new carpet.

They were not tears of joy, but tears of sadness because I miss my dad who passed away 2.5 months ago.

My dad was the guy who knew how to do everything around the house. That means, for the first time in my life, I had to hire someone to take on a home improvement project instead of having my dad take care of it. That was very hard. I’m still working through the emotions of losing my father so suddenly. I am certainly not at the acceptance stage, but having to hire someone to do what my dad would have done is almost a forced acceptance that I wasn’t ready for.

I realize I sound spoiled as hell right now, but it hurts a bit.

I do realize thought how lucky I was to have the dad that I had…that’s not lost on me! My dad did these types of projects not only for me, but also for my brother, his friends and at his own house (my mom is going through the same issues as she contemplates how to get improvements done at her home).

This process also makes me aware of something that I perhaps didn’t FULLY appreciate…how many THOUSANDS of dollars he saved me over the course of my life!

Thanks dad, for everything.